Now take three deep breaths!

Look Within

Look Within

Now take three deep breaths.  Deep inhale in, relaxed exhale out.  And as you breathe, allow your eyes to close and allow yourself to become internalized, please.  And as you continue to breathe allow anything like focused, concentrated attention to flow out of your exhale.  Any wanderings of your mind just allow it to flow out as if it was a color or an energy leaving your body through your exhale.  For all that remains is the bliss of this moment, the tone and the tempo of my voice, the sound of your breath entering and exiting your body, the way your feet feel on the floor, the way the weight of your body feels, either from the left or the right or right center.  Allowing yourself to be very aware of the micro-sensations within you.  And as you focus your mind and allow your focused concentration to increase, imagine a circle on the floor in front of you.  And imagine all of your love, your compassion, your connectedness with this thing called god, whatever that is to you, your connection to the divine, your connection to the ones you love, your peace, your passion, your heart, imagine all of those qualities of you creating a colored circle on the floor in front of you.  And only those qualities exist in that circle in front of you.  And imagine that circle growing in intensity and in power and creating a column of that color with those qualities in it that is the height of your physical body and imagine this is your circle of oneness, your circle of your own excellence.  This is the memory of you that always was the eternal you.  When you are ready to reconnect and remember the eternal you of yous, leaving out of it everything unlike this eternal soul of you.  This is the truth of who you’ve always been through time.  Take a step forward into your circle of oneness and remember the feeling of who you’ve always been.  Do that now.  Physically step into you.  Physically move and step into you.  Step into that color, into that column of your light and breathe it in, allowing that column and that color to influence, reeducate every cell of your body, shifting and rearranging the molecular structure of your body, washing you in the color and the bliss of your eternal you.  And breathe it in, allowing this color to enter every organ of your body, every cell, every molecule, every atom and breathe it in.  And let yourself feel you once again.  This is the you that is the love that is eternal through time.  This is your innocence, your connection, your joy, your compassion, your angelic you.  And breathe it in.  And feel.  And when you’re ready, step back out of your circle, now that you have an experience of it.  Step back out.

 

I’d like you to think of a memory from your past that, if the qualities of your circle of oneness were there in that memory, the memory would heal instantaneously.  Think of a memory from your past.  When you have that memory that will be healed by your circle of oneness, raise your hand.  Pick a memory or a relationship.  Very good.  Keep your eyes closed.  When you’re ready, I’m going to ask you to take the pictures, sounds and feelings of that memory, which is the only way that memory is alive in your now, take the pictures, the sounds and the feelings of that memory and step it into your circle of oneness.  When you’re ready, take that memory and step it into that circle of oneness.  Physically move it into your circle.  Do that now.  Physically step in.  Take the pictures, the sounds and the feelings of that memory and allow the qualities of your circle of oneness to wash through it, the colors, the infinite capacity of who you are to love and allow that aspect of you, the eternal you, to wash through that memory.  Reorganizing, reshaping, reimprinting the pictures, sounds and feelings of that memory and notice what changes.  And let yourself release.  Very good.  Take three deep breaths, please.  Breathe with me.  When you’re ready, open your eyes and come back to the room.

 

I have this formula for happiness.  My formula is know why you’ve come and live that with every word, every thought and every action you perform and you will be in bliss.  Some people say to me, ‘how do you possibly do all the things you do?’  And I say, ‘This is my life purpose.  There is no other place on the planet that I would rather be than right here in this room.’  Because I know that I am fulfilling what I am destined to do with my life expression is to teach this information.  And there is no other place I’d rather be.  There could 3 people or there could be 500 and I would have the same level of bliss.  Once you discover that and live from that reference point something happens in your life.

 

Have we shifted some memories?  Have we shifted the emotions around the memories?  How did that happen?  We sat in this room and imagined our circle of excellence.  We imagined it.  And then we imagined the pictures, the sounds and the feelings of an old memory, which was a little unresourceful.  We took that imagination into our imagined circle where we imagined all of our resources to be.  And what did our nervous system do?  In our internal representations in our minds, because we had such vivid imagination and we felt it to be true, what happened was that our nervous system did something that I call a collapse anchor.  You already had an existing memory with a set of pictures, a set of sounds and a set of feelings.  True?  And because you reimagined it differently, your internal representations changed.

 

Now, did you know that your subconscious mind did not know the difference between imagination and reality?  People who are screaming on the street corner at imaginary individuals in complete internal dialog that has now become external, are they in their imagination?  Is there reality real to them?  What I believe is they have lost the filter to keep their internal dialog silent.  We’re doing exactly what they’re doing but we’re doing it silently in our heads.  Have you noticed that?  You’re walking around with a conversation inside of your head, sometimes screaming at someone or something but you still have the filter to be socially acceptable so you keep it in silence.  They’ve simply lost that filter.  So what’s that saying?  One filter.  So what we get to do is we really get to look at this.  Because within this dynamic is a very powerful key to personal change, often overlooked.  When you imagine vividly enough your subconscious mind and your nervous system doesn’t know the difference.  Which means you can literally, if you imagine your resources greatly enough.  Remember how we built the circle of oneness?  We put in lots of resources, and we built that resource up so powerfully that whatever we took into it began to shift and change automatically.  How did that happen?  It happened through the imagination and creating internal representations, which is how you know yourself to be you, the pictures, sounds and feelings, vividly enough that your nervous system and your subconscious mind took them as true.

{To be continued}

Love & Light

Love & Light

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Gary De Rodriguez

Standing on the Shoulders of Our Ancestors

 

Pyramid of Time

Pyramid of Time

 

 

My mom was an amazing woman.  She was also an alcoholic and a drug addict creating the perfect laboratory for my exploration of how to create change in the human condition.  As a child I witnessed the one I loved most sinking into dark valleys of despair, insanity, and multiple attempts at suicide.  I chose the quest to understand how love could turn to hopelessness.  The questions I was determined to answer were: What caused this? What was the purpose of this suffering that colored my entire life? What can change it?  From the age of about five I took on the self-appointed role of being her psychoanalyst.  I believed I was her emotional surrogate, her confidant and her caretaker, up until the day she died.

 

As chaotic as my mother’s life was, her death was even more horrific.  She succumbed to a very aggressive form of cancer that even the Stanford Cancer Institute had never seen before.  It began with a little lump on the back of her neck, which she went to a dermatologist to have it removed thinking it was cyst .  Although he tried, the dermatologist could not remove it.  When she woke up the next morning, she had lumps all over her body and two weeks later, she was dead.

 

The melanoma tumor had been disturbed by the dermatologist and within a 24 hour period of time, the tumor sent out countless runners throughout my mother’s body.  The last few days she was alive, I slept stayed with her in her hospital room those last three days, and like a mantra being chanted in a morphine daze, she repeated, “I don’t want to die, I don’t want to die, If I could only live again, I don’t want to die, I don’t want to die.”   I sat with her twenty-four  seven for those three days and I looked at her in a state of utter helplessness.  I realized that there was nothing I could do for her.   There were no words of comfort, no scriptures to be read, no amount of tears could assist her at the end of her journey.  Nothing could relieve the fear of finally knowing she did not do what her soul came here to do.  The  air of her room was thick with the smell of regret and despair for a life spent in pain, under-realized.   She realized that she had done very little with her life.

 

My mother had been divorced from my father for over twenty years and every day of those twenty years she lived in the pain of the loss and emotional betrayal of her true love – a love she believed would always be her sanctuary.  Her heart was irreparably broken.  She did very little with her life as an individual after the divorce.  Her fear was so great she could not enter the work force.  She was very poorly educated and carried tremendous shame as a consequence. 

 

As I watched my mother die, I vowed I would never die as she was dying.  During those last painful days of my mother’s life, I vowed I would face my fear. I would discover my purpose.  I would fulfill my potential.  I vowed to life I would never allow myself to die as she had, filled with the regret and despair of what she did not have the courage to do.

 

Now this is were the story gets good.

 

About four years after my mother’s death, I was sitting with a really good friend of mine, Kathy Hern, who was at that time the minister for a Science of Mind church in San Diego.  We were sitting chatting in her office, when she casually asked me a question about my mother.  In that precise moment I began to experience an altered state of consciousness which had never happened before and has never happened since.  The moment Kathy brought up the subject of my mother, I felt the spiritual center of my body – the place between my eyebrows known as the third eye – suddenly open up. 

 

I experienced somewhat of a dual vision.  I could still see Kathy and her office and simultaneously I could see into another realm of existence.   A mist appeared and out of the mist my mother began walking toward me. It was her angelic presence.  She was wearing white robes and the wind was blowing through her hair.  She looked gorgeous.  I don’t remember if I heard her voice or received her message in thought, but as clear as day she communicated these words:

“Son, I lived the life I lived to show you how not to live.  I died the death I died to show you how not to die.  Choose the right path. 

 

Do not waste time in your story.  Distill the wisdom from the sum of your life’s experiences and go forth to realize your soul’s unique contribution.”

As soon as she delivered this message, the image of my mother disappeared back into the mist, my third eye closed, and I sat in a daze staring off into space.  

 

My mother’s words presuppose a powerful truth that is at the heart of this book.  Out of love she lived within the constriction of her limitations, as an example of what not to become.  She did it for the sake of my learning, my evolution, my eventual contribution.  Her death was an example of how not to live, and therefore how not to die.  Out of deep love and devotion to me, she lived the life she lived, in order to show me the right path. 

All of my story as a young boy and adult had revolved around how terrible my childhood was, creating a perspective of my world darkened by a lack of awareness of the spiritual intent behind all events.  I was awakening from the trance of victim and blame to the awareness of the perfection that is through the window of what my soul came here to fulfill.

 

I had always considered myself to be a victim of a chaotic and unstable childhood, yet as I examined my mother’s life from this perspective, I began to realize the multitude of things she taught me through the power of her example.  My mom was probably my greatest teacher.  This realization was a powerful experience which reshaped my perceptions and shook my procrastination and victimization to the core.

 

Whether our parents are living or dead, each one of us stands on the shoulders of every ancestor that came before us.  We exist as a culmination of their successes and losses; their positive intentions and ignorant mistakes.   Through the tragedies and triumphs of those who came before us, we are given a sacred window through which we can glimpse the mystery of our life purpose.  Our parents’ failures are perhaps our greatest teachers.  By deeply examining their lives, we unveil an important message about how to live — and how not to live – our own.   

 

  

 

What is the hidden soul lesson in why we came through our particular ancestral line? What is the hidden message inherent within the circumstances of our families?  These are questions seldom asked deeply requiring to be answered.

Our past has created our present, but it need not create our future. We can write a whole new story.  Move the focus of your mind away from the story of what you did and did not receive from your parents to what your parents’ lives are teaching you about life.  Take their life lessons and make different choices.  Through the expression of our life demonstrates whether we will continue the ancestral influenced thinking or choose another Path. 

 

Could our ancestry play an important part of who we are at the subconscious level and could this influence have some bearing on who we are today and does this information show a light into what we are here to master in this life?

 

Love & Light

Love & Light

Gary De Rodriguez